The problems of being a boy
Sexuality used to be a problem when guys weren’t able to take ballet classes or wear pink shirts without being called gay and stupid. Today things are much better. If I wore pink shirts or went to ballet classes everyone would be fine with it. Unfortunately I managed to kiss a younger boy at a soccer game and got beaten up that same night. My back still hurts when I am standing up for too long.
Feeling sexy is what I want most. I do not though. I feel ugly and unwanted. Useless. All I can do is sit around and read. Bookworm. Nerd. I hate it. Yesterday I went to a store and took out very very trendy stuff. I tried on several shirts and pants and suddenly starting crying right there in the store cuz I realised I cannot be a guy who wears that.
My best friends and I talk a lot about sex. WE just don’t have sex that often, we need to admit that. Unfortunately. But sex is overrated anyway. I used to screw a lot of girls and all that was left at the end of the night was a feeling of hunger and a pain in my stomach. My bright red lips in the mirror, that was actually quite a good feeling.